This resonates with me, I know that smoking makes me feel bad, I almost always regret it afterwards, it's like an instant hangover (probably something to do with the nicotine mucking with my insulin/glucose levels), when I feel that I swear I'll give up...but then time passes, something stressful happens, it doesn't take a lot, and there I am forcibly making myself feel like trash again with a cigarette. I've often thought that it is a form of self-harm, for me at least, it's just I've never heard another smoker (ex-smoker should I say!) describe it in similar terms. It was nice to read the words of someone who has used smoking in a similar way and managed to give up, it gives me hope that one day I will kick my butt in gear and do it myself... I hope.

Thank you Elisabeth!

All the best,

Antony